oh I wish I could express what I feel. what I have inside without reproach or judgement. because I dont feel special; i dont feel unique. I dont feel deserving of what I have. i have no idea why she's still with me... if she doesnt love me. i ransack my brain for answers to my question, and questions to my answers, and meaning to my life. i think i have found it; but only time will tell wether I am right or wrong. I cant help feeling the way I do without stepping out of the boundaries. so I have decided to take the pain, the hate, the serenity of it all and just throw it away and see what I have left. constant adaptation is a human beings greatest resource or any living creature's for that matter. but I dont want to adapt, I dont want to.... I am who I am, yet I dont know what I am...
think about one thing for one moment for once in your life.
why stay alive? material possessions mean nothing. and spirituality wont do you shit til ur dead, so what is it that we stay alive day to day, looking upon our impending doom adn desiring it all be over, complaining that we arent in control of our lives; when in reality we are. we are the ones who have to chosen to keep living the life we have. we have chosen to go through the suffering again and again and all for what....? i know my reason.. do you know urs?
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*i love you shrimpiie<3*
